Faith, Trust, and Grace

So here's the new blog. Lauren is mainly responsible for my switch to blogspot. I figured that my blogging life is mostly worthless without her so when she ditched livejournal so did I. I suppose I'll be able to meet more people and find new blogs this way. And of course especially with starting a new job in a week I'll need lots of internet procrastination options. Hopefully this job will be sufficiently interesting and busy so I won't need to worry about it too much but let's face it. Even the actors in movies like Friends With Benefits and How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days with amazing advertising and media jobs like to go on facebook and twitter. It's the way of the new world.

So as usual I'm not a huge fan of new years. I find it to be nothing more than my mentality that despises change and new beginnings. My entire life revolves around change and new beginnings. Going to school at Northeastern is a whirl win in itself. Not the whole living in Boston part but the whole oh now you have a new roommate, now you're starting a brand new job for six months, now you're located in a foreign country on your own for a while, etc. I start a new change in my life every 3 to 6 months. I always get great experiences but sometimes enough is enough. Not to mention the changes my life has gone through in the past three years or so. My entire family dynamic has changed. My mom got remarried, my stepmom went crazy, my aunt went crazy, my grandmother died, my favorite cat died, and my favorite aunt and uncle got a divorce.

I get it. Life is always changing. And I count my blessings on a daily basis. But getting together to act like partying baboons to watch another year slip away seems superfluous. Maybe when my life gets a little more constant and I can stop getting curve balls thrown my way for a while (wishful thinking) I'll be able to enjoy the new year more. But things I liked about 2011...going to Europe for the first time, seeing 8 different countries, working at Parliament, spending time with my lovers over the summer including Paola, going to Arizona to visit Marina and finally making it to San Diego, turning 21 and loving it, maturing, learning, growing, seeing the final Harry Potter movie, getting a co-op that I hopefully will love and adore, getting straight A's for the Fall semester, learning how to eat healthier and finding motivation within myself, and just spending time with the people I love.

I'm sad to see it go because I've done so much. To me a new year isn't a new slate. It's just another day in your life. If you want to start something new today is the day. And not because it's New Years! Because it's today. And I suppose I'm also a little bitter this year because once again going through scary changes and Ryan and I were both ill last night. So although I'm happy to have spent it with the one that I love. Not so happy with the circumstances.